Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Why, why why WHY does she hate me??!!

Gah, I am so fed up of my principal. She is a great lady, smart, extremely frum, but the Rebbetzin is so. Freaking. Closed. Minded.
I'm sorry, I mean no disrespect. I respect and admire her, but I just don't agree with her on many many counts.
We always get into arguments in her Machshava (Jewish thought, a.k.a Jewish life according to her) and I am always respectful in our arguements, I hear her out and I respect her opinions. However, she does not respect my opinions, she interrupts me, doesn't allow me to finish my sentence and avoids answering my question.
For example: Last week we got into a discussion regarding Shomer Einayim V'Aznayim (Guarding the eyes and the ears). My school does tell us a lot not to listen to non-Jewish music and to not watch TV, be careful what we read, etc. because it affects the way that we think and do mitzvos. I understand that viewpoint, even though I do not hold that strictly. The Rebbetzin said that the way we should guard ourselves against this outside force is to live in a bubble, a completely closed environment because then we will never have a "first taste" of something "bad" so we will never desire to do it.
I disagreed and said that everyone should be made aware of the dangers of these things but also be made aware WHY they are a bad influence. That way, people will understand why they shouldn't do something and they will come to realize on their own whether they wish to hold that sensitivity or not and how strict. Also, that removes the "forbidden fruit" temptation that leads many teenagers off the derech today. They will see for themselves what is out there and know why they shouldn't do certain things, rather then just being constantly told "no" without explaination.
The Reb and I argued back and forth for a bit, and I was respectful, but as I brought several points to support my position, she only brought her one point and refused to listen to my point, while avoiding my entire question of the risk of the temptation. I don't see how she can claim to have an open discussion environment in her class while refusing to listen to students unless they fully agree with her.
Besides that, the way that she looks at me, acts towards me and talks to me makes me feel like she is judging me extra carefully, either because of my community (I am the only one from my comunity who attends this school) or because of my opinions. Maybe she is afraid that my opposing opinions will be a danger to other students she wants to keep in a bubble (which she tries and fails to do). But I don't get it. Why spend her time judging me on my opinions when there are girls who don't understand why certain things are wrong are going off and doing these things.
Whoops, bell. I'll continue later. But....gaaaaah, I don't get her!!!!!


Blogger Catherine said...

You are quite obviously your father's daughter. Hang in there! :)

11:37 AM  

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